Wednesday 27th April, 2016                    0030

I never thought I would be saying this but the play I wrote I have now cancelled, much to the disappointment of the organisers.

Everyone was sent the script for their observations and suggestions for improvement but yesterday morning I awoke to a shitstorm of texts from Richard. Now this guy is never here and until just now I never even had his phone number so I asked Andrei to forward everything to him. Contrary to my belief even they hardly ever see him.

Well the observations and suggestions offered to me were an outright refusal, allegations of thinking I was his boss and disrespect of him for not approaching him directly. If he was actually home more than he was away then approaching him directly just might have been an option but with limited time to come up with something I did my best. I am now sorry I bothered to spend time coming up with a play that will now never be seen.

Sure, the rest of us could have performed it regardless but I have a really nasty taste in my mouth now and I am not even sure now if I will even turn up to watch the concert, leave alone take part. It is a far cry from the days when Kevin and Ollivier were my colleagues. Certainly we had our disagreements but none of us were impossible to get along with. All that has changed.

The final concert after six years here will now be a sad memorial to my tenure.

On to brighter things. I did manage not to screw up the bread pudding for tomorrow afternoon’s class so they will be happy. I also made minestrone soup which was ok if you discarded the beans, I have no idea what they were (they looked good when I bought them) but they remained hard! Chilli enchiladas are sitting in the fridge for cooking this evening for Dumpling and me. All I need to do is grate some cheese over them. Quite what I will eat on Thursday night is beyond me, given that I have used every vegetable in the flat!

I do find myself in the position of being most unhappy here now. For five and a half years I have loved it but lately, what with being told I am for the scrapheap and yesterday’s (plus other instances) occurrences I am starting to will the day I sign another contract elsewhere. I will not make the effort to befriend fellow foreigners wherever I fetch up, instead I will wait until I find it to be a worthwhile cause. I am quite happy to do my own thing, what I am not happy about is having everything thrown back in my face when I try to do the right thing. I certainly won’t take the lead in any performing monkeys affair, that’s for sure.

Life has its ups and downs. Right now they all seem to be down……..